August 2019

I remember back in the day when I made all of our bread.  One of my favorite parts was after the dough had been rising and it started to form a crusty layer.  I would punch it down and knead it until it was all smooth and pliable and I could form it into loaves.  Many years later I was reminded of that pleasant memory during a not so pleasant time on my job.

I was having a difference of opinion from an instructional coach on an issue involving my students.  It was really getting to me.

From the journal . . . . Novenmber 2007

Rejected! Frustrated!  And I don’t feel valued! I don’t think it’s fair to the kids and I don’t know why ‘she’ thinks her way is better .  

As I vented to the Lord, I found my heart supernaturally softening toward her.

And I Believe God Said:

Always call on Me and I will take care of  your heart.*  It is pliable to My touch and when I knead it with My love, it is not so fragile.   It feels better to you and I can mold it like playdough.*  Always tell Me about your hurts – no matter how small.  I will give you beauty for ashes. The oil of joy for mourning.  My oil makes you pliable.*

Ezek 11:19-20 Isaiah 64:8  Isaiah 61:3.NASB

God, how awesome You are! Can I give You or build You a tabernacle? (I was relating to Peter during the Transfiguration when he wanted to build Tabernacles for Jesus and His holy companions. Mark 9:5)

And I Believe God Said:

I just want your heart.  You see I know when it’s breaking and cracking, but I have the lubricant to keep it in good condition.  I have it and I am the one to work it in.  You just have to yield to Me everything.  Don’t wait for the crusty stage.  Come always. Come now.