June 2020

This entry was written when I was going through breast cancer treatment and I had a lot of anxiety.  Anxiety is anxiety regardless of the cause.   Maybe because of these past weeks’ events with protests, riots and pandemic issues, you can relate to the apprehension and fear. The solution is still the same! Bring it all to the Lord.

From the journal . . . October 1988

. . . Oh Lord, now I’m crying again.  I don’t mean to feel sorry for myself, I just feel like crying. Jesus, You can change my emotions.  I don’t have to feel this way.  I know You love me.  I can almost feel Your hand on my head.  Ha.  It makes me wish I had washed my hair. I sense You lifting my chin and You enfold me.  And I cry against Your chest.

And I Believe God Said:

You are mine and I love you.  It’s okay my little one. Tears are good.  Give Me those tears and I’ll give you living water.  You really are calm and at peace.  This peace is what I’ve given you and it is getting stronger every day. When you feel stressed, the peace is being stretched.  But remember, as you look to Me, it will hold.  You aren’t aware of the growth and strength I’m producing but it will be permanent.  You will not fall.  Later on, you won’t even totter, like you do now. I’m your father, teacher and trainer.  My exercises truly strengthen you.  Believe My encouragements.  You are doing fine.  I am pleased with your progress.  Lean on Me.  Anytime you feel weak and ugly, come to me.  You are precious and what you think is weakness, is merely your need of Me.  We are drawn much closer through these times.

Psalm 3:3  Psalm 4:8 John 14:27