July 2020

Recently I posted an entry about the sin of jealousy.  I had admitted and confessed it as sin.  I believe the Lord showed me a more realistic and positive way to respond to the negative thoughts that come in.  I think jealousy has a root of insecurity.  If that isn’t dealt with, we are vulnerable to many sins.  In this entry, I was faced with a test of temptation toward jealousy, that came through suggestive thoughts of insecurity.  I believe those thoughts are from the evil one. *

*2 Cor 10:5. Gal 5:19-23

From the journal. . . . July 2006

  Lord, we went on a triple date with friends last night and it was perfect. You came to me two times in a wonderful way.  I started to hear a pesky voice inside taunt, ‘Peggy likes Kristen better than you’ or ‘Dave likes Kristen better than you’.  But instead of jealousy and insecurity my response was, “So what? Greg and Kristen need friends.  I like Peggy and Peggy likes me.  I like Kristen and Kristen likes me.  We can all be friends. If those two get together and do things – that’s good!  It’s taking nothing away from me. “ That was a victory!  Thank You Lord.  I praise Your name.  Kristen will always be my special friend.  Our relationship has nothing to do with my relationship with Peggy.  If Peggy and Kristen become friends, that has nothing to do with me. I see more clearly how acceptance or rejection affect my perception.

And I Believe God Said:

You are learning to apply what I’ve been teaching you.  You are more aware of Me.  It isn’t a done deal but you have seen and heard My voice.  Discipline yourself to choose My voice. Seldom are you rejected. Never by me. 

²⁷ My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me: ²⁸ And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.

John 10:27-28

The other thing was that at one point, I felt my friend was withdrawing from me.  Rejection?

You recognized that Greg became uncomfortable with a conversation you were having with him.  Not so much because ‘you’ were talking but because it was too relational ‘for him’.

Another incident of something that is not ‘about me’.