Laura was my mother-in-law.  She loved the Lord and we had a good relationship. At this time, she was going thru radiation treatment for brain cancer.  I was in a place in life where I was available to take her to appointments and I was glad to be able to help her in this way. Usually that was enough but sometimes I hoped someone would notice that I was doing a ‘good thing’.   I know, right?

From the journal . . . .September 1987

…  Laura is on my mind.    Lord, I desire respect and appreciation from people.  That’s truth.  Please protect me from making that too important.  I love praying with and for Laura.  You wanted me to do that each time I was with her and thankfully I did.  It wasn’t hard.  I loved it! Yet, sometimes I wondered if she told anyone how faithful I was.  God,  – yuk!  You are the faithful one!  I never want to lose sight of that.  I confess Lord, that pride comes in.  Forgive me, Father.  Show me how to avoid that pit.  You are wonderful!  The Gracious One. 

And I Believe God Said:

You ask of me and I will always respond for your good.  You confess honestly and I will always delight to forgive.   Look to me and I’ll always be there.  I am in front and in back of you.  On the sides, on top and on bottom.  Inside and outside. * Past, future, and present.  Diane wherever, whenever, however, why ever you look for me –  there I’ll be.*  But you have to look.  Never try to hide.  You know there is no need.  You don’t have to be ashamed.  Repentant, yes.  Don’t let shame nor embarrassment keep you from Me.*  I died for your shame, and embarrassment is pride.  Come to Me always.  

Psalm 125:2 Isaiah 61:7

2 Chron 15:4 But whenever they were in trouble and turned to the Lord, the God of Israel, and sought him out, they found him