April . . . . 2021

When we are involved in relationships of any kind, there is always the possibility of rejection.  I assume all of us have gone through at least a couple rejections and heartbreaks over broken relationships.  Maybe you’ve gone through many. At times, we have probably been the one doing the rejecting. Sad, but true. We may, or may not, have known the devastation we wrought.  In this entry, I was heartbroken over a very close loved one who just stopped all communication.  She and her whole family were going through hard times unrelated to me (I think?) but, she wouldn’t talk to me at all.  I hurt for her, but she couldn’t, or wouldn’t, let me in. Did I feel like I lost my best friend?  Yes. I wrote this after months of failed attempts to re-establish the relationship.

From the journal . . . . August 2019

Lord, she turned me down again. I confess, I’m sort of mad.  No . . . I’m confused and disappointed.  I’m getting tired of trying to reach out.  I get the feeling she’s burning bridges but can’t bring herself to actually do that to me. After all, we were best friends, or so I thought.  Maybe I was wrong. God, help me.  I love you, Lord.

And I Believe God Said:

Let her go.  Keep loving her.*  She knows where you are.  I know it’s unacceptable to you, but you can’t change it.  You need to accept where they are.  You can’t help in any way right now* – apart from prayer.  Prayer helps you, as well.  I am pleased with your love and persistence in prayer for each of them, including the kids.  It isn’t easy for any of them.

Love chapter 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Lord, I feel like they aren’t holding unto You.  I hope that’s wrong.  I wish I knew.

Keep praying.  Relationship with me is the most important thing.  You don’t need to tell them, but you need to pray.

Okay, Lord.  Thanks for the tears.  I know they are love tears.  They remind me that my love for them isn’t pretense like my Rom 12:9 verse says:

Romans 12:9-13

Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good. ¹⁰ Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other. ¹¹ Never be lazy, but work hard and serve the Lord enthusiastically. ¹² Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble and keep on praying. ¹³ When God’s people are in need, be ready to help them. Always be eager to practice hospitality.