It’s interesting to look back on what seemed, at the time, to be an inwardly frustrating situation.  I now recognize how understandable it really was, given the circumstances I was going through at the time.  My mom, who was very much loved in our church, was in her final weeks of life on earth.  She was no longer able to attend our Church Life Group.  I was teaching the group that week and having a hard time focusing.

From the journal . . . . June 2016

  Life Group!   Lord, I bombed and didn’t really know what I was doing or where I was going.  We read and talked about the Beatitudes.  I emphasized that I had nothing to give them on my own, but I knew You had everything to give.  Lord, I was indecisive and so unprepared.  Your word is not to be taken lightly and I was stressed about correctly conveying Your meaning.  My thoughts were so random. My brain just wasn’t focused.   Lord, what about that?  What purpose did it serve?

And I Believe God Said:

You showed your vulnerability.  There was much love in life group.  You spoke about your mom and when you shared your prayer request – it affected them.  The group was distracted.  Tom didn’t realize she is dying.   Leslee was touched and she grieves for your mom.  Cindy just really wants to help. 

Mark’s confession of his feeling ‘unmotivated’ was also a significant step for him.  It was a significant time.  You were all doing life with Me.  Doing life with love.*

I see that, Lord.  My mom had told Leslee that Life Group wouldn’t be at her house again and that made Leslee cry.  There are people that don’t know the situation.  I’m thinking I should put something on Face Book, so people know.  Please help me with the wording.

*In the Lord’s Prayer Jesus instructs us to pray in a certain way. He starts out with saying “Our Father in Heaven” Matthew 6:9. Later He says “Give us this day” (vs11) “Forgive us our sins” (vs12). It’s all in plural personal pronouns. We do this together. Our Lord wants us to Do Life TOGETHER!