We get many feelings and impressions about our friends and family members at different times.  Sometimes the feelings are accurate but of course, not always.  In this case, there was something going on that I didn’t understand.  The Lord’s direction for me seemed to be strategic, intentional, and do-able so I ‘did.’ 

From the journal . . . . August 1990

Lord, I saw Monica yesterday.  I don’t get very good vibes from her. God, I started a letter to her, thinking You were prompting me.  I wrote, “I sense the Lord has encouragement for you. . .” but Lord, it’s blocked somehow.  I couldn’t go any further.

And I Believe God Said:

Monica is not receiving My grace.  She needs it but she refuses it.  The enemy has deceived her, and she is tied up.

Heb. 4:16. Therefore let’s approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace for help at the time of our need. NASB.
James 4:6 ⁶ And he gives grace generously. As the Scriptures say,
“God opposes the proud
    but gives grace to the humble.”^[ NLT

Lord, what is to be done?  What do You want me to do?  Oh God, I recognize a reluctance in me.  I wonder if it will involve a time commitment.  Will it involve rejection?  I think she resents me or something.  Lord, I want to be obedient to You.  You know me, Lord, and if I can truly help, I’m willing, but I’m afraid of this defensive girl.  I need your guidance.  I’m afraid of being misunderstood.

Yes.  I know what your feelings are.  Put them aside.  I know your intentions. * They are good concerning Monica.  Look to me.  Don’t worry about her response or reaction.  She needs help.  She respects you but she fears you.  Be gentle and be confident.  Don’t let her intimidate you.  She is very needy and vulnerable.  Be wise, firm, faithful and persistent.  Don’t give up.  Offer friendship.  Don’t be pushy but be accessible.  Make a point to speak to her at church or whenever you see her.  Notice if she is there.  She doesn’t trust easily, but don’t give up. You don’t need to write a bunch of notes or make a bunch of calls. My yoke is easy and My burden is light.  Your responsibility is to pray and ‘touch’ her when she’s around.

Psalm 139:2. You know when I sit down or stand up.
    You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
Matt 11:30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” NLT
Eph 6:18. Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.

Later their family drifted from our church, but we kept in touch. When she was diagnosed with cancer, we had more contact. Amazingly, the Lord brought her through and gave her a great testimony of His faithfulness to her. He brought her to a place where she was able to receive the wonderful grace He had for her.  At the same time, He taught me about pressing on in love and listening to His directions.

1 Cor 13:7. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.  NLT

  Prov. 3:6-7. Seek His will in all you do,
    and He will show you which path to take.  NLT