After the first day of college, I was scared. So scared that I came home, went immediately to the freezer, and ate one quarter of a gallon of ice cream, right from the carton!  Thankfully, the next morning the Lord balanced me.

From the journal . . . .June 1991

This morning my balance was restored.  Lord, You are everything to me.   If I have You, I have it all, and Glory Hallelujah, I have You!  I believe that You were telling me that as I look to You and trust You, I will do well.  I dare not and need not sacrifice any portion of my life with You, for study or college.  You can super energize my brain to understand what I need to understand.  If I give it my best but don’t compromise my commitment to You, Mark, or the kids, then the result will be success.  I believe You can do that.  Use me for Your purposes, Lord.  I think my goal needs to be to do my best in the schoolwork, not to save souls.  That’s Your job and You will use me but not give the job to me.

And I Believe God Said:

I am the One who is the Savior.

If a person is saved by man, man has to keep him.  Man can’t save himself, certainly not another.  

Acts 4:12 And there is salvation in no one else; for there is no other name under heaven that has been given among mankind by which we must be saved.


Romans 5:20-21  God’s law was given so that all people could see how sinful they were. But as people sinned more and more, God’s wonderful grace became more abundant. ²¹ So just as sin ruled over all people and brought them to death, now God’s wonderful grace rules instead, giving us right standing with God and resulting in eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Personal relationship with Me must allow Man and me to interact without a third person. Holy spirit helps with the interpretation problems.

1 Cor 2:10-13  But it was to us that God revealed these things by his Spirit. For His Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets. ¹¹ No one can know a person’s thoughts except that person’s own spirit, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit. ¹² And we have received God’s Spirit (not the world’s spirit), so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us.

Your job is to encourage commitment. However, I most use you by your example of how a ‘couple’ should be.  You depend on Me and I take care of you.  Do not be afraid for I delight to show you mercy and to help you.  I love for you to depend on Me.  I am your shield.  Your provider.  Your teacher. Your defender.  Your joy.  Your purpose.  Look to Me and I will watch out for dangers.  You are in these classes because I want you there.  You can learn useful things.  What interests you most are the very things that I want to teach you.

1 Thess 5:11. Psalm 55:22 . Luke 12:32. Psalm 50:15. Psal 37:4 Psalm 32:8

The Lord was so faithful to take me through my college career.  He kept me close to Him even when I felt I didn’t have much time to spend with Him.  I believe it was during that time I was very much aware that He really was in this relationship of ours and it wasn’t all about me having my quiet time.  He wants all of us to depend on Him so He can show us His great love for us. He wants you and Him to be a couple!!